Friday, May 23, 2014

Finding God's Fingerprints

Memorial Day Weekend 2014
Friday May 23, 2014


         It’s early here. The woods are alive with birds greeting the rains with their songs. I am delighting in the joy of having four days off ahead of me and I luxuriate in having time to savor my coffee and devotionals. No rush, rush, rushing to get to work on time, just relaxing knowing I have a wealth of time.

          
             My father, whom I dearly loved, spoke seldom about God. He was a businessman, busy with life, earning money, taking care of his family. He believed in God, had accepted Jesus as his Savior at an earlier age, but the ‘cares of this world’ had kind of nudged the whole ‘God thing’ out of his everyday life. For many years, it was mom who took us to Sunday School, church and prayer meetings. Dad stepped back from attending and used Sundays for yard work, watching sports on TV and relaxing. It wasn’t until Dad retired that things changed in his life. A nagging pain in his side that bothered him through the years finally became unbearable. He sought help and surgery revealed he had cancer.

          For mom, her companion, provider was now a wounded warrior and she found herself abruptly in a caregiver role. Mom’s pastor from the tiny Woodland, Washington church she attended, made home visits.  Gradually as the pain and devastation of the fast advancing cancer took it’s toll, dad turned again to God. Myself, a single parent, attending college up north, took the Amtrak train down to see dad. I was shocked. My strong tall, (6.4”) father was reduced to a near skeleton. Not only had his physical appearance changed, but his spirit had changed also. He was anxious to share with me and impart some wisdom knowing his days were growing short.

          “Robin,” Dad began, “I’m worried about you because you always pick a man  to love who is so desperately needy. Don’t pick that kind of man. Find someone who is strong and healthy. And when you find one of these men to love, don’t share your whole past with them. They don’t need to know every mistake you've ever made.”

          I gulped and held my peace. These were difficult words to hear.

 He went on,
“And another thing; you always see the glass half empty, you never see it full. You’ve got to look at life more from a positive side.”  He paused for a moment and seemed to sink into himself. Then is a more hushed tone, “Robin,” he spoke tenderly,  "One last thing, I've seen God more in His timing than in any other way.”

          This week at work I’ve been getting to know my new office partner. Young, excited about his new job, he shared that he is a believer, (in Jesus). Admittedly I sighed a sigh of relief. The last person I shared with well, let’s just say he wasn’t what you’d say all that interested in God.

          Well, it’s impossible not to help people if you are linked by a common space. So over the last week,  I've answered questions, given materials, watched this young man go through the process of meetings, training, orientations and so on. I can see much giftedness in this young man and the potential to be able to reach many of the young people we work with. I can also see that for many of the tasks we do, he is more suited than I. I have shared these observations with him, to encourage him, to let him know I am o.k. with him settling into some of the things I do now. In my heart of hearts, I looked at this young man, lots of tattoos, ear gauges, bright warm smile, and I had the inner awareness that before me sat a possible future youth pastor.

          He and I discussed the fact that he is getting training on everything, step by step, carefully being groomed for him to be good at what he is doing. Situations have been such that this careful training has not always been the case. People have had illness, life crisis, people have left positions on and on. He however, arrived at exactly the right time and place to be able to excel in his position. In the course of our conversations about life, about God, about situations, I shared what my father had shared with me, “I see God’s hand more in His timing than anywhere else.” He seemed to think this over and expressed some sense of gratefulness for this being now, his time, his place and God's timing.

I also shared with this young man that my church women’s Bible Study group has been praying for me and my work. Additionally, that I truly believe that God heard their prayers, mine and others and brought him there at this time, and at this place to help our hurting teenagers.

          Today, reading my devotionals there were several things that stood out to me with so much impact that I want to share them here. Being available, being the right person, at the right time and the right place also involves being willing to allow God to have His way in your life. As with any commitment, there are things that get in our way, just like my Dad’s career and his commitment to God. Today’s devotional shed some light on this situation. In  My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers todays reading explained the scripture passage in Mathew 6. The observations Chambers made were that Jesus said, “Be careful that the cares of this world, (worries, work, relationships, bills, health, careers, family, etc.) don’t choke out the Word in your life.”

          Wow, what a message. Not, “Watch out for the devil.” Not, “Look out for those evil people trying to get you.” But, don’t let your involvement and worries about life get in the way of your relationship with God and His purpose for you in this world. Talk about paying attention to the fact that we get sidetracked with life and get off the right path!  For my dad, that happened. He accepted Christ as his Savior at a Billy Graham crusade in Seattle. He and my mother quit the Elks club with the parties, drinking and gambling and started out in a church home, the old Bible Baptist church in downtown Auburn, Washington.

          However, dad started making money in his business, and the business, the cares of this world took over. Not until he was sick, broken in health did he return to the relationship with God that he put on hold. What did that cost him and the others whose lives he might have reached? How much of could have been, would have been and should have been didn't happen we will never know.

          For me, all I can say is, “Ditto.” I allowed my family, my home, my career to keep me entrenched in the “cares of this world” mentality and the could of, would of, should ofs piled up finding me older, willing. but with limited time to fulfill God’s purposes. Now this young man that shares my office, he’s young. He has the time to look for and find God’s fingerprints on his life. He has the time opt to choose the path that will lead out of being side-tracked with the cares of this world and find his one true purpose.

          Speaking of finding God’s fingerprints in your lives, I found something this morning I want to share. In another devotional, A Gentle Spirit, (published by Harbour 2000), several women share their insights about how they've taught their children to look for God in their world. They listed four ways they most often have perceived God in the world. I would like to list them here.

1)    Answered prayers- you pray for a situation to resolve; you pray for help; you pray for family; and then the answer comes, (sometimes when the situation seems impossible.)
2)    Unexpected evidence of his care. (Special gifts you needed, or wished for that you didn’t tell anyone about and someone gives them to you. Many other ways.)
3)    Unusual linkage or timing. (the right, the right place, the right person, the right situation, against possible odds.)
4)    God’s supernatural help to do the job you have to do in this world. (Strength when you have no more. Resources when yours are gone. Love when yours is exhausted. Faith when you have no more hope. Knowledge when you are at wits end.)

If you, like I, have been looking for God’s fingerprints in your own lives, I hope something of what I’ve shared will help. May you gain perspective on your own journey, your own purpose, your own renewal of vision. If any of this has helped you, please drop me a line. I would love to know how you are doing.


Take care and be blessed, remember God’s promise;

Joy will come in the morning.

          Robin

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Joy in the Morning

Saturday May 17, 2014

Sing praise to the LORD, you His godly ones, And give thanks to His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for a lifetime; Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning.” Psalms 34:4,5

I woke up happy this morning, peaceful, content. And strangely enough, I had no desire whatever to have coffee. I’m not sure which was more unusual, being happy or not wanting my morning coffee. Odd, how life is made up of so many experiences we weigh and wonder about. I enjoyed the moment. My bedroom faces a large ravine, with huge cedar, fir trees and an errant vine maple or two. The ravine is steep, now covered with spring woodland green, bracken and sword ferns, and other lush, green plants. At the bottom is a creek. In the winters, this is a roaring, wild small river, pulsing with life and power. Now, after a hot dry week, it is a soft, gurgling trail of sparkling water making its way down the forest valley where it will ultimately blend its waters with the mighty Columbia River.

          This morning, the creeks pleasant sounds along with the songs of dozens of different birds singing their morning’s blessings are my companions as I take out my Bible and devotionals to center my thoughts for the day. I have been reading through the Bible this year, and the last week or so I've been in Jeremiah in the Old Testament.  Admittedly some days I struggle to relate to the story; a mixture of warnings, messages, wars and conquests. I continue to read. I’m guessing it’s kind of like taking vitamins. I’m still old school and am downing the unpleasant pill form. They taste horrible for sure. But, I know they are doing good as my incredibly good health continues except for maybe a day or two a year when I’m not so good.

          I’m not meaning to say parts of the Bible taste horrible, but sometimes from the perspective of a 2014 working woman I struggle to relate to some of the parts. But I continue. My devotionals continue to be warm friends as their short messages encourage me to continue, to be strong, and to persevere.

          So, within the quiet space of my living room I continue to enjoy the sounds of birds as I type. In the oven, a batch of cinnamon rolls bake. Outside my window, several of my rose bushes are blooming and it’s a rare morning of absolute peace. Two of the devotionals today talked about having quiet moments where you recharge for the next leg of the journey. Today, that’s my plan. No urgent errands, no must do’s, have to get done. I will gently and quietly do those things I want to do. Like making cinnamon rolls; washing dishes in hot sudsy water; tackling the laundry, taking joy in folding clean and soft towels. Looking out the windows of my home, I feel some urges to weed a flower bed or two. I have found that it is often the menial tasks of life which bring me the most joy. The everydayness of things that are comforting in their sameness; their easy to see results satisfyingly stretched out without any complications. A whiff of hot cinnamon rolls wafts into the living room, I suppose I should go check them.

          I enjoy a cinnamon roll, savoring the taste of the hot home-made bread and rich cinnamon spice. The sun, poking its warm, yellow face between drifting banks of clouds bathes my yard in its glow. I am so fortunate to live in a home with big windows and views of skies and trees. Thank you God



          Recently, I have stepped up my efforts to pray for the people who have hurt me. To ask God to help them, to lead them, to call them to Himself. Slowly, the pain of their actions is leaving my heart and soul. God is, “taking the sting” out of the memories. I see some of these people in my everyday life and the memories aren't gone, (the harsh words, the criticisms, the broken promises etc.) but I am seeing more of the dark circles under some eyes; the worry lines on faces, the sounds of stress in their voices. I believe as I submit my right to myself to have the hurt feelings, to keep the resentments, that God is healing the effects of their actions in my life.

          In the job I have, I spend hours daily talking to people, listening to people. Most of these people are teenagers. They share about their lives; abandonment, abuse, neglect, confusion, pain, suffering, addiction. I try to help steer them in the right direction; to encourage them to seek their connection with their Higher Power. To connect with resources in the community to help them sort out their lives. Sometimes, they shut down, maybe even swear. For so many, being willing to seek a High Power (God) after all they've experienced in life seems ludicrous to them. So many unanswered questions of, “Why did my parents have to be drug addicts?” “Why did they have to put me through so much pain and suffering?” “If God loves me why on earth would He allow all this horrible stuff to happen?”

          The kids don’t always verbalize these sentiments, but they lay hidden behind their masks of, “cool”, “tough”, “I’ll do what I want.”  I continue to try to be kind. To offer a listening ear, information, and an opportunity to seek a different way of life if they want it. 

          For me, now, I am so fortunate, thank you God. Clouds are covering the sun again and the wind is picking up but it’s o.k. My mood is not dependent on the weather. My happiness is not dependent on circumstances. My hope is in the Lord.


          


To all of you wherever you are, 
take hope, seek God, 
and joy in believing 
in time -
 you will have joy in the morning.