
For the last four and a half years I have been a long
distance commuter. Up to 2.5 hours a day in the car, back and forth,
back and forth, good weather and bad to work I go. People look at me
when they hear this and shake their head, "Are you nuts?" they ask with
apparent ease. Certainly dodging semi's throwing up blinding sheets of
rain to my windshield I wonder. Or slip-sliding away on snow and ice, I
wonder.
I wish I could say, I never complained. That would make me
sound so noble, so self-less, but honestly. that would be a lie, I've
complained to family, to my church,and to God. I've questioned the
practically of spending upwards of 400-500 a month on gas. I've prayed,
I've had my church pray. But the commute continues.
Recently I've started to realize that this time alone in the
car I've had a chance to really pray and think. I've learned to enjoy
the sight of trees, hills and rivers, winter, spring, summer fall. I
truly believe that maybe, just maybe my creator knew that without this
enforced commute there were many areas of my soul that would not get the
light of His healing love. That's not to say I think I've
arrived...we are all on a journey and the nature of our being is that
we constantly need renewal. Their are elements of our natures that
remain stubbornly self-centered and self-purposed and require dealing
with again and again.
Today, I let God know that I'm surprised that as long as I've
been working on getting a new heart and mind, it seems there is so much
of "me" left. Bad habits are easy to acquire good habits take much
longer.
I try to remember to thank God for my blessings; I can still
drive; I have a car; I have money for gas; I can still see; my list goes
on and on since I have so much to be thankful for. Maybe, a week from
now, or a month the door will open and I find myself working closer to
home. I will hopefully look back on these thousands of quiet hours as
time I got to spend talking things over with God and hopefully learning
to listen to the language of His love.

Today,
become a person who is worth the "wait"; allow God to use your present
circumstances to help mold you into the image of His Son.
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